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Confessions of a Financial Domme
I am a money domme. I am well known in the financial domination community. I need this to stay anonymous, I'm writing as my true self, unlike the Princess act I put on.
My financial domination persona is nothing more than a character. I started out doing phone sex and felt used and dirty. I came to financial domination and quickly rose to the top. Men catered to me now, thats what I always wanted. Only I'm not really dominant, I just like to be spoiled and adored. I don't want to have to put on a strap-on and fuck some guys disgusting ass. My character is starting to take over my life, I'm becoming what I portray but inside I'm still fucked up and hate myself. I can't even look in the mirror without crying, I'm so ugly.
Sometimes I disappear for a little while. I never give a good reason why. Its usually because of one or more of these reasons that I stop making clips:
1. I'm in a depression and can't face the day. I stop taking showers. I have to look clean to make a clip so production is halted.
2. My boyfriend got drunk and bruised my face or throat. It was my fault probably for being in a depression and not doing anything around the house. Stopped helping him clean, stopped taking care of myself and tried to stop him from drinking. Called him names, maybe threw something at his head. He will choke me and tell me he hates me or he will throw me into the wall and punch me over and over. I will try to fight him off but he is stronger and I already know its my fault. I can't make clips with bruises all over my face and neck.
3. I got bored.
4. I ran out of ideas.
Do I really make money as a financial domme?
Not enough. I average around $5K a month, its never enough. I owe so much money to the IRS & for my house & for my student loans. I have a horrible condition with my teeth that I can't even afford to have fixed. I have other health issues that I can't attend to because of no insurance. I make half of my cash on clips4sale, the other half comes from 'slaves'. I don't use niteflirt, I don't use talksugar. I use greendot, paypal and clips4sale. Cash in the mail. I give out my cell number to my loyal slaves and make them pay me $100 for every text I send them.
I'm in a financial crisis. I need money but I would never say that as my character. My character appears to have many slaves and lots of cash. I post proof pics up the wazoo. They are all photoshop. Take one proof pic of amazon, c4s and paypal and alter them over and again. Nobody knows that. I'm guessing I'm not the only one who does it though. I give womenrule6699 free video clips of myself in exchange for promotion.
I can't keep a real job. I have a college degree but my mental illnesses prevent me from keeping a job.
For the same reason I get this natural buzz and go on shopping binges, I spend all of my money.
I'm worthless.
See that photo. Its Jonathan Ward. I wish he could tie me down and fuck my brains out. I want his mouth all over my body. I want him to tell me how I am nothing but a fuck toy for his amusement. I'm not really a domme after all am I? Its all about the money, for all of us. Every "Domme" you've ever served has been an actress.
My financial domination persona is nothing more than a character. I started out doing phone sex and felt used and dirty. I came to financial domination and quickly rose to the top. Men catered to me now, thats what I always wanted. Only I'm not really dominant, I just like to be spoiled and adored. I don't want to have to put on a strap-on and fuck some guys disgusting ass. My character is starting to take over my life, I'm becoming what I portray but inside I'm still fucked up and hate myself. I can't even look in the mirror without crying, I'm so ugly.
Sometimes I disappear for a little while. I never give a good reason why. Its usually because of one or more of these reasons that I stop making clips:
1. I'm in a depression and can't face the day. I stop taking showers. I have to look clean to make a clip so production is halted.
2. My boyfriend got drunk and bruised my face or throat. It was my fault probably for being in a depression and not doing anything around the house. Stopped helping him clean, stopped taking care of myself and tried to stop him from drinking. Called him names, maybe threw something at his head. He will choke me and tell me he hates me or he will throw me into the wall and punch me over and over. I will try to fight him off but he is stronger and I already know its my fault. I can't make clips with bruises all over my face and neck.
3. I got bored.
4. I ran out of ideas.
Do I really make money as a financial domme?
Not enough. I average around $5K a month, its never enough. I owe so much money to the IRS & for my house & for my student loans. I have a horrible condition with my teeth that I can't even afford to have fixed. I have other health issues that I can't attend to because of no insurance. I make half of my cash on clips4sale, the other half comes from 'slaves'. I don't use niteflirt, I don't use talksugar. I use greendot, paypal and clips4sale. Cash in the mail. I give out my cell number to my loyal slaves and make them pay me $100 for every text I send them.
I'm in a financial crisis. I need money but I would never say that as my character. My character appears to have many slaves and lots of cash. I post proof pics up the wazoo. They are all photoshop. Take one proof pic of amazon, c4s and paypal and alter them over and again. Nobody knows that. I'm guessing I'm not the only one who does it though. I give womenrule6699 free video clips of myself in exchange for promotion.
I can't keep a real job. I have a college degree but my mental illnesses prevent me from keeping a job.
For the same reason I get this natural buzz and go on shopping binges, I spend all of my money.
I'm worthless.
See that photo. Its Jonathan Ward. I wish he could tie me down and fuck my brains out. I want his mouth all over my body. I want him to tell me how I am nothing but a fuck toy for his amusement. I'm not really a domme after all am I? Its all about the money, for all of us. Every "Domme" you've ever served has been an actress.
